Bila cinta kini,
Tak lagi bermakna,
Yang kurasa kini,
Hanyalah nestapa.
God, the lyric is beautiful and the piano accompanying this song just superb. However, this song sure messed with my head. It hit me right to the core. Right where it hurt. I just want to live a simple life now. Please, lets not complicate things anymore.
This subject never been my favorite. Love never seems on my side. Whether it is from my family or my friends. I love them though. Even i am being forgotten someday.
Even my dad says I am the only one who sought after my friends when they don't even care about me. But he is wrong. I refuse to believe that although some of them are true. This was back when I was in high school. I hate myself before and hearing those kind of things just make matter worst. I hate myself up till now.
For being weak, stupid and quite. Maybe this is another factor of my disappearance.
For those who consider me as their friends: I just wanna say thank you for being there for me, willing to be near me and get to know me when everyone else stay as far away from me. I love you guys. And if we never meet again. Just remember that you have been part of my life and for that, you guys are the colors of my past. my deepest memory and deepest heart is where your name lies and not erased at all... I am sorry for what I've done to you guys. Hopefully, you will find it in your heart to forgive me.
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