Bergetar hatiku memandangmu,
Ooo..Resah, hati gelisah..
Part of Akim's song lyric. I am so lost right now, the problem with me is that, I fall easily and I wish I don't have to be like that. Why?? The more I rejected the truth, the more I am jealous of him. God! He is so nice but I have to act like a friend so help me please. I don't want to be oblivious. The thing about me is that I am quite predictable when I am in certain condition. People notice stuff and I notice that he is running away from me. I am starting to bore him and creeping him out. So sad. That is why it is better if I just befriend with him. I cannot afford to lose a good friend like him. Not that It matter anymore. Everything is ruined. I am ruined.
- karina
- To tell you the truth. I am a bad person. I did wrong and never seems to change. I often envy others and often want something but not doing anything to get it. Yeah!! you can say I am lazy. It is hard for me socialize in real life and to make matter worse ,I hate to be told on what to do but I also depend on it as me myself incapable of making my own decision. I wish life can be less complicated but I have been on a bumpy ride along the way and knew first hand it never gonna happen. I read somewhere that easy life are full dull people. I guess I want to be dull. Ironically, I embrace challenge in form of flying fox, motor cross but most of all kayaking. I am 20 something but my brain still haven't progress the way it should be. Maturely. This blog is my life event and most of it may be ridiculously self center and painfully dull. Wink..wink..
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