When all things gone bad

I don't want to be like that. I value our friendship. So please, please, let me go. My heart, if u love me you will listen to me. Please stop being such a brat and listen to mommy for once. I just want to be friends. Sure, when I heard the news, I am sad. I still am. It hurt and I felt like it sliced through my chest. Its good that I am not good with people. But it hurts when I get too close I can't stand losing them . My fear of losing my friends just unbearable. I know, my paranoia kicks in. Need them to say that they're my friends no matter what. but I know, we human, don't usually do what we preach. Soooo missng M already. Its bad enough that my bestie Ami become stranger for now, not another one.