I'm dying to hear that special someone says....

Okay, so my blog has become recently, a disgustingly sappy, overrated romantic, heart pouring  piece of junk. If you read all my post then you'll know. Right now, its like another sappy post. What I meant by the heading is that, I'm dying to hear that special someone says " U r my exceptions" .. Its sweet and touchy and I like touchy cuz I love art and to produce good art, you must be able to touch your audience with your art. 

A dear friend of mine once told me that I will think about marriage during my fifth semester in U. But, I kinda brush him off. Truth be told, I am jealous of other people happiness. I see the smiles on people faces when they're in love. I see a lot of loyalty, commitment, constant attention and betrayal. Well, of course, betrayal not counted here. Its beautiful. 

My friends told me that I should not be dating someone because, well, mostly guys that they met are painfully pain sometimes. Its really pissed me off when I hear their stories and it crush me to see their tears. I..I don't like it when woman being hurt by men. So, I guess that what makes me very particular when choosing the right person to be with. Which ended up by me being single. Haha...well, another thing is that, sometimes I am disgusted at men. For who they are. Its not fair but I can't change my feeling or me.

I guess why I am being touchy and sensitive and wanting to hear something that's impossible is because, I am nearing the age of 21 and I haven't had a single relationship with guys. Its my fault really, I'm too cold. Well you can and can't blame me on that given the way I am raised. 

So, maybe I may hear the words but maybe not. Nobody likes me. I mean in a serious relationship matter. I'm just not mature enough to be in one. Lets just say that I am waiting for someone that's true to himself which obviously not coming. hee.... desperate it may sound but It just me.