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Somehow, I am even more depressed in training than in class. Cuz, in training I have to do all the things that I hate. I don't know how long I can keep up with this. With this acting and liars... Hopefully I am strong enough to live by myself without any family at all. Cuz, I am thinking of not returning to Sabah anymore. Since I had been warned not to come home if I insist on leaving QS.

Dying seems more appealing right now. But then again, I am dead inside for a very long time now.

Its rather complicated

They came to us last week. After lunch that is. And I can't help noticing his Edward Cullen hairstyle. Somehow, he is different from the 'he' that I know. Different from where we met. Can't take my eyes off him but i have too. Else it would be too obvious.

But somehow, remembering him makes me depressed even more. Since he doesn't like me, like me. Hahaha.... I'm getting myself confuse. I am an example of a person who just cannot accept the fact that people don't like me.  Its like a cycle actually, some guy will come and give that ' i am interested in you' attitude and after several months move on with another girl. What do they think I am??

Good think I learn fast and from experience in high school too. Too never trust anyone. So bye-bye.! Adios Amiga.