Tomorrow I'll be going back to Sabah after a few months here. There are lots of ups and down during my time. It is not that I want to quit but I think I need to resolve myself there. Although my family is not the best place for me to hold on and rely to.
The fact that I didn't tell my friends because, I do not want them to think different of me. I know, I complained a lot and that I am a total opposite of their kind. I am sad though cuz I couldn't tell anyone but give them the hint. Hahaha... such an attention seeker I am. Hm.. now i regret doing this but then, maybe it is for the best.
Resolve myself in terms of
1) self confidence
2) question in my heart
3) My love life
I hope that if i were able to return to Shah Alam again, I will be a different person totally. A better one. With goals and determination and fighting spirit.
- karina
- To tell you the truth. I am a bad person. I did wrong and never seems to change. I often envy others and often want something but not doing anything to get it. Yeah!! you can say I am lazy. It is hard for me socialize in real life and to make matter worse ,I hate to be told on what to do but I also depend on it as me myself incapable of making my own decision. I wish life can be less complicated but I have been on a bumpy ride along the way and knew first hand it never gonna happen. I read somewhere that easy life are full dull people. I guess I want to be dull. Ironically, I embrace challenge in form of flying fox, motor cross but most of all kayaking. I am 20 something but my brain still haven't progress the way it should be. Maturely. This blog is my life event and most of it may be ridiculously self center and painfully dull. Wink..wink..
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