Monday Blues

I think today post akan lebih bnyk lagi.. It just that I'm having a monday blues. Exams sucks, and i just being ditch by my own friends. How bad the day be? owh wait.. my paranoia kicks in.. Yay!!! Now i can have multiple reasons to suspect people around me of trying to get rid of me. huh... I miss my old friends. Sometimes, it hard to change and even when I try to change, my past is always pleasant than the new one.  Can I just go away? Somewhere far where I will never meet the poeple I met right now and in d past?? I need to chill .. I know, but i can't. Going back to depression is not the answer. I refuse to go back at that time. It hurts.. but what i felt now is pain.. and it also hurt. so will it make any diferent if i'm hurt now . Add up my pain ..It just kill me.